What was supposed to be a total romantic and lovey dovey day turned out to be a great disappointment for me. I did not receive any big bouquet of flowers like the other girls do...I even tried to sound dear out by asking if he did send any flowers to my office and as expected...he didn't. Still hopeful, i made my way home to get my part of the surprise done. I had planned a nice homecooked candlelite dinner for us and a birthday surprise cake. Everything worked out perfect including the mocktail which I invented.
The love menu
Starter ~ Mushroom Soup
Main Course ~ Salmon Fillet with Cheese Baked Beans with Cherry Tomatos
Dessert ~ Choco Love with Cookies & Cream Ice-Cream
All these yummy food were downed with these..2005 White Wine from Rhine Valley Germany & Pink Sparkling Juice
Surprise from dear:
- a box with small cushion hearts, a monkey card, a softoy turtle with S$100 for me. (I din even like turtles in the first place...but this was fine, afterall its his thoughts.)
- then he gave me 3 red roses....(from NTUC!) Not even a properly wrapped bouquet...I am not expecting a hundred roses bouquet althought it'll be really nice to receive one on this special day...but surely how can I be charmed with 3 roses from a neighbourhood supermarket?? Sighx..First Disappointment.
- surprisingly he prepared another surprise for me....it was a ugly Espirit Sweater....I wished I can love it or say I like it and not make him unhappy..but its really ugly...first, its too tight or small for me, then its too short to be a sweater and its not even comfy. Definitely not something I'll wear.
That's all for the night...I ended up washing all the dishes even though he volunteered to do it. No surprises from him even as the night was ending...I don't expect much except that he might suddenly offer to bring me to a beach or something. I woke up this morning with a super lousy mood...not that I can help it. He knows I am not happy.. compared to the past valentine I had with my ex-es. The ones with him really suxs...I am the one doing all the planning and surprises most of the time and all he can plan is to have dinner at somewhere special and give me a present. Sighx. The Bintan trip was uneventful with both of us not feeling well...but this vday was not anything different. I feel terrible for feeling this way and even telling him how I think about his presents and stuff. The last prada bag he bought me wasn't even the design I like...and its so freaking expensive that I can't just dump it. Is it just me that is too demanding or is he really the sort that can never be romantic?? Vday Suxs! I might never want to plan another special day from now if this is all I'll be getting from him in future...the amount of money and effort I spent is probably 3 times his....I hate myself for feeling this way, but I juz can't help it. God...help me.