Was told that we shouldn't cry during confinement but I broke down twice during this week. The lack of sleep and lack of support from the other half finally crushed me.
1st case happened when Titus had to stay home due to hfmd case in his preschool. Hubs is the one that wanted him to stay home. When I told him I cant handle 2 baby at home, he reluctantly agree to let T stay home on fri and still go school on thurs. But T is a handful on fri, refusing to take his nap till 5pm. I did not sleep much that day so was hoping for a nap while the babies r sleeping. But its a long tiring day taking care of 2..only ate my lunch at 3+. T only fell asleep close to 5pm. I broke down while patting him to sleep. No calls or sms from hub the entire day to ask how am I doing. 7.30pm, saw him online in the game chat but no calls or sms still. I was still naively hoping he will rush home immd after work to help out...but nope...he only came home close to 8pm.
Sat I broke down again...went out shopping to cheer myself up and a small incident happened when T fell at the escalator. Hub shouted at me to move away while i was helping to get T up. I snapped at him. Dinner was close to 10pm. I was tired and hungry. When baby K cried at 1am, I asked hub to help take a look at him...but he took his own sweet time and even took his phone to text. I finally couldnt take it and told him off. Shouldn't the son be priority rather then your phone?? We quarrelled. I decided I will not rely on him to help. Will handle everything myself. Broke down and cried while feeding k. I felt sorry for myself.
I never expect a perfect hubby but all I need from him is care and concern. Something I never felt from him. He never cares whether me and babies r hungry...never made the effort to ensure we hv our meals on time. Since coming home from hospital, the only thing he has done is delegate tasks to the maid..from bathing T to feeding and now even for K, he will wake up to ask maid to change diaper rather than do it himself. I don't need a husband that only delegate. I need a husband that will take responsibility and look after this family, look after us.
I have so much disappointment that is too long to write down. I dunno when I am able to forgive...let's see. But for now, this is not the husband I wan.