2011 was an eventful year for us.
- We got our very own landed property - across the causeway in Malaysia.
- Rented out our HDB to a nice couple.
- Got 'retrenched' for the first time in my working life. But was asked to come back almost immediately. Shifted office & quitted my job.
- Hubby asked to transfer to another department in his work.
- Mummy got admitted again due to fall.
- Mummy was diagnosed with last stage breast cancer.
It's not exactly a smooth sailing year for us but God is good to us still. Although we have been hoping for a child, it wasn't something urgent until news of my mother's cancer was announced. It impacted me greatly and I felt sad that she might have to leave this world even before she could see her grandchild. I told hubby about my thoughts and he agreed with me. Hence, we decided to start ttc with our 'own efforts'.
Around June 2011, we decided to visit KKH just to find out if everything is ok with us. Results were good but somehow baby dust did not rain on us. Desperate to give mummy a grandchild, we decided to go for IUI procedures. I was prescribed Clomid pills with Puregeon Injections. It was a short but painful process as I have to inject myself continuous for 4 days. In the midst of this, a close friend came over to visit one day and shared her story of how she became pregnant (she just conceived about 2 months ago). She told us how she struggled 7 years ttc. Just when she was about to give up, she decided to go back to church for one sunday and God spoke to her through the message. Her story is pretty similar to us. Once a devoted Christian, I've left church for close to 10 years. Her story woke me up..maybe using my own effort is futile..nobody can grant life except for the Creator, isn't it?
Me & hubby decided to finally show up for our date with God. One that was late by 5 years (we once promised to visit a church near our place when we first got married, but never came to doing so). I was secretly hoping for a message during the sermon as well...but it turn out to be a normal preach. However, God's prescence touched me during the service and I wept. I prayed hard for God to hear my prayers and answer it..for time is running short.
The following week, I was suppose to return to KKH to check on the development of my folicles. They need at least 3 mature folicles before we can proceed with the IUI procedure. It was a lonely and depressing wait everytime I visit the IUI-IVF centre at KKH as hubby was not with me. I saw many couples with the hope of having a child coming here..but only to leave disappointed. When it was my turn, results showed i have 15 folicles which were matured. I was rather happy to hear this since this means i have matured eggs to be fertilized. However, there was no good news from the doctor. Doctor said we cannot proceed as too many mature folicles could result in multiple pregnancies which might be dangerous for the mummy and the babies. Of course I wouldn't mind twins, but triplets or quadrants were quite scary. She even advised me not to have unprotected sex at home for next 1 week as risks is still there. I was really disappointed as this means I've suffered all the pain for nothing and we have to go through another round next month.
While on the way home, I started praying to God. If it is God's will to give me a child, even if the doctor says otherwise, I'll still have a child.
Cut the story short, we were too caught up with our house shifting thereafter that I totally forgot my menses was late. It wasn't always regular so I simply brushed it aside thinking it must be due to the stress from all these shifting that cause it to be late. 1 week passed..and 2 weeks...i started having menses like cramps but menses never came. I decided to do a pregnancy test at our new house one morning...and this is what I saw. (The 2nd test and ultrasound scan was from the next day when we visited the gynea).
I squealed with joy from the toilet when i saw the plus sign. This woke up silly hubby who is still in lala-land. He asked me what happened and I showed him the stick. It took him a while to realise what is happening. And first thing he asked was, 'am i really going to be a father?'
We decided to visit a gynea the next day just to confirm. I made hubby pay for a 2nd pregnancy test kit just to be sure. And we were elated to find out xbd is 6 weeks, 4 days old by then! And with God's blessings, its a single foetus. Don't need to worry about triplets...
Tummy at 11 weeks.
Our baby at 13 week during the Oscar Scan. The results were very good. Baby is perfectly normal and healthy. Like every parent, we were overjoyed during the scans when we saw xbd move and hear the heartbeat. I can't believe there is a life within me...and it feels what I feel and eats what i eat. (Teaching it to love durian btw since I need to put on weight).
Tummy at 15 weeks.
Now I am excitingly looking forward to feel xbd move inside me..i did experience 2 kicks at week 14...but not sure if its from xbd. But he did change position 180 degree after the 2 kick. Also, we'll be able to find out the gender at the next visit. Because this child is from God, I have been blessed with a very smooth 1st trimester. Other than feeling lethargic, I did not shun from any food and no serious vomitting. Was also blessed that I was serving my notice then..so I could rest a lot at home. To all couples who're hoping for a child...Rest & Let God do His work...because only He can give the gift of life. We are really glad to receive this gift from Him and pray for a smooth pregnancy and delivery and a healthy chubby baby at the end of 40 weeks. 110 days down...170 more to go!