winterlove

I have not been in a very good mood for the past 2 weeks..in fact, it can be considered as bad mood. Reasons: both the interviews i went to failed. This greatly affected my confidence and morale level. Guess I set my expectations too high and is now suffering the consequences. I try hard not to think that my life is bad..but whenever I think of people around me, some of them seem to lead such blessed life...never having to worry about money or jobs. For me, I grew with the fear of not having enough to support myself..and having no degree qualifications, my current position seems to be the peak of where I can go. I felt the same way around this time last year too...but God blessed me with a salary increment but somehow for this year, I feel that I might not be so lucky again..and unless I move on, or I might risk losing this job and my income. My greatest fear is what is going to happen if I stop working and dear's income is not enough to support the family? Why is the already difficult life getting harder? Sometimes I wish time can just fast forward and go to the stage where I am already old and going to die...so that I dun hv to go through this process. Life is no good when you constantly have worries..time flies so fast but most time is spent worrying..by the time you realise it, too late. I know all these logic...but I lament...why am I not born into a rich family or have a rich husband? Why can't i do the work that I enjoy without worrying about the salary portion? Why isit that some people can spend millions just on renovating their bungalow and we can't even afford a 50K reno?? Its really tough being a human...


I miss Twinkle..only she can cheer me up now.