Forgive & Forget

I finally understand what it means by "it only takes someone to make the first step." I had this bunch of sec school friends whom I did not contact for 2 years+ due to some misunderstanding. I hesitated from contacting them all this while as I was worried they might still b angry with me. But after some convincing from another mutual friend, I decided to take the big step and contact them for the first time in two years. I mean, its easy picking up the phone to call someone you lost touch with, but not someone whom you parted with anger or sadness. But I decided since I am moving on to the next phase of my life, I shouldnt bring over those grudges or bad feelings with me. And some part of me do miss these gals who I've spent my happiness and poured out my sorrows to. We did promise each other to be present at one another's wedding too. Like what our mutual friend said, you never know unless you try...and if you tried and fail, at least you've tried.

So after getting their contact info, I msn one of them and sms the other....to my pleasant surprise, both of them replied!! They still treat me as their friend. This is how it goes...

Me: "Hi Jac, this is Ailian. Long time no c, how r u?"

(I waited for almost an hour and was about to give up hope when my hp rang.)

Jac: "Hi, how r u? Congrats, heard you are getting married." (Yippey~she is not angry with me anymore...I struggle hard to fight back my tears that is on the verge of falling)

Me: "Ya, I wanna invite you and shan to my wedding. Not sure if you can make it."

Jac: "Sure. I am off on that day."

Me: "I am glad you're not pissed with me anymore..I do miss you guys all these while."

Jac: "Miz ya too."

This is roughly how the conversation goes...will be miting up with them this sun...wow, I am really excited at that. Will be inviting them to our house..will be the first time any friends come over to our house...hehe..I decided to give them this privillege. Really glad I had the courage to take this first step..and thanks to them for being so forgiving towards me....now my life is almost perfect....good hubby, good job, nice colleagues and found back my long lost pals!

Bridal Shoots

Finally we collected our bridal shoots! To view the pics, please click on the links on the side. Tons of things happened this week..me being in a no work mood...have been idling and passing time for past 3 days..I am beginning to feel bad. But just not in the mood to call up those strangers and talk to them. I mean, I don't mind talking to people whom I know their names or have spoken to before..but talking to complete strangers is a totally different thing. Some of them can be so hostile you just feel like hanging up. One of my ex-colleague has hinted me she wants me to join her in her new co. I wonder if the offer is good...if it is, I might just consider. Afterall, everyone works for the money. But I do like the people and bosses here..hard to find another co. where everybody is friendly and no politics at all. I do love this job except for the jobscope.

Dear finally bought his long awaited LCD monitor last night. After spending 1-2 hours surfing the auction site, I found this pretty cool deal ~ a 17" Phillips LCD monitor with 2 years warranty. The stated price was $199 and I mentioned I don't mind paying $199 to the seller..but dunno how we ended up paying $200 for it. But it was ok though..just $1 difference anyway. It looked pretty new and sleek. Dear agree to let me use it while he'll use my old LCD..yippey! I hope it works as well as it looks.

I slept at 1+ and 12+ the last two nites..reason for it: I am addicted back to my Sims game again! Since my PC crashed the last time..i totally lost interests in the game...because all the files which I've painstakenly downloaded and installed is all gone! But now that the PC is ok...and hopefully it'll stay this way, I am excited to install and continue my game again...so there I am...spending many hours and skipping dinner just to play the game. Kinda silly I agree..so tonite I'll go back mum's place and give myself a break and a good nite's sleep...shall continue again tmr nite! hehe...

Ya, went for gown trying on sat...there isn't any exciting new gowns as what they said before...kinda disappointed..but what to do. I regret not taking the package in SG where their gowns seem much nicer. Maybe the boutique owners here has better taste. Anyway I ended up with 2 white gowns...one for morning and one for evening. The morning one has been worn before during my fotoshoot..well, doesn't matter I guess..so what if you get to wear many different gowns, people only look at your face anyway. And nobody will remember. But I was happy..the morning gown had a princessy effect to it..prob will ask the makeup artist to go along with the look. My evening gown is a elegant piece..I din get a plunging neckline or low back gown in the end...dun wan my relatives to remember me becos of that. And definitely don't want any gossips. And I have my own gown to top the look. I am contemplating if I should buy my own long veil to match the march in..that is suppose to be part of my dream wedding. Perhaps will check with the makeup artist first.

Ya, while waiting for dear at the MRT the other day, there was this young couple sitting beside me...din notice them initially until when the guy snatched the girl's bag..then I realised they seem to be quarreling. Since I have nothing better to do...i begin to glimpse what they are doing. The girl seem to be crying and kept wanting to leave...however the guy kept holding her back...with her bag of cos! This reminded me of my quarrels with my exs...it seems to be rather similar. Looking back, it is ironic how the super sad feelings and tears at the point of breakup can heal so soon. You probably think you'll never be able to leave without the person or never love another then...but 1-2 years down the road, you're back to normal. For me, the ex I used to love so much is already attached again (even though he said he could never love another for at least 2 years after our breakup), dear's ex is already married to someone else. Well..I guess time heals all pains....and before you know it, you're already at the ending phase of life..so cherish each and every day you have.

Appreciation

This is dedicated to my dear dear whom luv me so beri beri much.

I returned home for the first time this week after staying at my mum's place for the past 3 days. (was trying to spend more time with her before I officially marry off) And since I have been in a foul mood for the past two days due to my toothache, when dear sms me yesterday, "Dar, will I be able to see you at home tonite?", I replied, "Nope, I am going into hiding." I returned home nevertheless with a grouchy mood...not able to have the dinner I intended to have cos all the bread was finished by dear. I ended up cooking the leftover pig kidney....tasted quite nice but my toothache made it painful to chew anything..I used this as an excuse to skip lunch for two days...need to really slim down before Dec.

Anyway, when dear returned home at 9+, I ran upstairs immediately to hide from him. Hehe...he managed to find me though. We share this strange kind of bond..he'll always be able to know where I am even in a crowded place... When I asked him how he knows I am there, he'll just say, "I can smell you." Likewise for me...I am always able to know what he is thinking without him actually saying it out...guess that's the kinda bond couples have.

Back to the story, when he found me..he had this tiny bouquet of baby's breathe in his hands...bought from Cold Storage for S$4.50. Hahaa....i commented, "Should buy the big bouquet ma." We bought a big bouquet of baby's breathe from the florist at only S$9 the other time. Can still remember how dear bought that...we were at this florist wholesaler at thomson rd...and we decided to go into their freezer to escape from the hot humid weather outside...there were lotsa flowers in it and at extremely cheap prices too! 5 stalks of sunflowers only cost $12. I jokingly told dear to buy me the 999 roses from here next time cos it is cheaper.

Then I spotted this big bouquet of baby's breathe (my fav flower) at only S$9. Without hesitating, dear took out a bouquet and said, "let's go." And that was the story of the baby's breathe.

So yesterday night, not just the baby's breathe, he also bought 3 boxes of durians for me! Even though I was feeling heaty, can't escape the temptations of the yummy durians...hehe...so I happily ran downstairs with my durians and ate them while watching TV. Dear was beside me eating his cup noodles...poor thing, must be broke after buying those stuff.

Guess he really missed me lots...cos he kept telling me he missed me and its good I am back home. This morning, he gave me lotsa kisses while I was still in a dreamy state hugging my pillows..."Lao Po., I love you. I am going off for work now." I love to hear that from him every morning...and I really wished we can be like that till the end of time...feel so fortunate to be loved. Hee~

No Posts, utterly no posts from him at all! Argghh...why am I the only one posting to this blog when it is suppose to be OUR blog!

Anyway, I know I wanted to post the pics of our recent Bangkok trip..but was too busy and definately too tired to do it. Been swamped with work since I came back. I was still happy at the thought that my relationship with my colleagues improved last week...but today, it seems a bit wierd..all becos of one neighbour that is sitting near me....she seem to be ignoring me since the incident on Monday. All becos of a silly scissors. I really wished its just my imagination, she can't be that petty right? But after one past incident, I am really scared of offending someone unknowingly...since it happened with one wierdo last time. So I tend to be really quiet here..I know its not me..I'm the kind that likes to have fun and joke around, thats what makes my work enjoyable. Really wished things improved soon.

Anyway, dear made me cry in Bangkok. Can you imagine?? Suppose to be a happy holiday but yet I cried! All becos of his stupid attitude problem. He likes to keep quiet and then throw a big temper when he is unhappy. We were at Chatuchak shopping around, then suddenly he stopped talking and just walked behind me. When I tried to talk to him, he doesn't even respond. I hate it! Why can't we be like other couples that can happily go for their trip and happily come back?? When will he become mature and take care of me like a man does? I am really getting sick of it...

My New ToY

Yeepeeee....so excited, I am going for my trip with a cool new toy! My "new" Nikon Coolpix 8700 - 8 megapixels digital camera! Still at a blur of how to take those cool looking pictures with it..but I swear I'll try...anyone willing to take in a student for free? Pls contact me.

Getting a Pro-cam was one of my wish this year..been surfing around for a cheap and good one. Since I am a beginner, and can't afford a brand new set, getting a set from the auctions was one of my first options. I started surfing on and off....came across a few good ones but too ex for me. Cost SGD$900 to buy a Nikon 8800. Then while surfing yesterday, something caught my eye...a 1 year old Nikon 8700. After contacting the seller, he is asking for SGD$680..strictly no discount. I called up one of the Sim Lim shops I know and enquired about the price for a brand new set...SGD$1350~ WOW.

I was truely tempted by then....so pestered dear about his opinion. I did my due research on the web for comments about this model...good and bad..but for the price and features, I would say its good! We consulted two friends into this photography thingy and they both commented its a good buy. So on 6/7/06 (the day before my BanGkok trip), I owned my first Nikon Coolpix 8700 Professional Camera!!! Can't wait to bring it overseas to take some great pictures...also pray hard I can sell my old Olympus cam to get back some bucks for it.