Yesterday we attended our first Wedding Preparation Course under the kind invitation of Pastor Alex! This was going to be a Christian version of the WPC so it'll be mainly teachings from the Bible. Me and dear were excited about it..at least unlike other couples I know where the guy is practically forced into attending by the gal, mine was quite willing to go through this with me.

There were 4 couples in total, 3 soon-to-be Husband and Wife and one married couple who is there to assist us. Everything has been prepared for us when we reached...dinner, drinks, fruits and snacks..we were really touched by the kind gesture.

The first session is on communication, one of the key factor that causes breakups in marriage. We watched a DVD on other couples that shared their own experiences in poor communication and how they managed to overcome it. Dear of cos agree with most of them...(he kept complaining about how he is often not understood or ignored by me). Well, I do admit to some extent my patience is rather short...but well, like what Pastor Alex said, we have a lifetime together to practise our communication skills~. Hehe

I had the chance to communicate to dear about all the pressure I am facing with our wedding prep. He has been too preoccupied by his work lately to help out..but he promised he'll make the effort. I am glad the other couples we met shared the same problems as well..haha..so I am not the only lonely soul out there..it helps.

But I guess we both benefited from the workshop in a sense, for me, I felt something different, to me, marriage is no longer about 2 persons getting together and staying together...its really about the unity of 2 entity into 1...in a Christianity way, the missing rib is placed back to where it belongs...close to the heart of the man you love. And being able to find the someone that you belong to in this big world is really not easy, so its important we cherish him/her once we've found them. Some might find that theirs is a mismatch or a wrong choice made...but most of us will be able to find the correct one at first try...but I believe a good relationship takes time, effort, patience, selflessness and lots of love to work out. So continue working on it i guess~

Feel so relieved~ was living in the fears of losing my job yesterday...after hearing my colleague whisper about someone leaving next week. I thought it was going to be me since I've yet to pass my probation. I was worried for the entire day and night - lesson learnt...never be kaypo and eavesdrop on other people talking. Well, my worry is lifted this afternoon when one of my colleague came over to me after lunch.."Adeline, I have something to tell you later."

Shrudders*.

I went to look for her as soon as we're back in office...she announced the news to me...she is leaving the company. I was SHOCKED! She has been here for quite long and I always thought she is one of the valued staff for my boss...never expected her to leave so soon...since I was only here for two months plus. Well..I know it sounds mean to feel this way, but I am actually relieved that I am not the one leaving. Will miss her a lot...she is a friendly and nice gal..and I know she'll do well in her life. Wish her the best. Seriously, I can't imagine anyone would want to resign from such a nice company...nice colleagues, nice bosses, no stress. Probably she has found a better job elsewhere. I dunno.

Yesterday I rushed home to prepare dinner for dear. Twinkle has managed to sneak out again and poo poo near our speakers causing a few unremovable spots on my tiles! Grrr... I swear to find a method to confine her where she can't possibly sneak out again. Haha, and I did. Since I wasn't feeling too good over work yesterday...I din have mood to talk much over dinner...and dear was in his usual wierd temper days again. After dinner...he made a big hoo-haa...banging on the bathroom door, slamming doors etc. I was beginning to think he is mad...but I ignored him anyway...one concept I have...if anyone is trying to attract your attention with noise, ignore him..otherwise it'll become a habit. Plus I was way too moody and tired to bother about him. So I had an early night rest. Just when I was falling asleep, he came into the room and starting jumping on the bed waking me up. I was pissed. We had a pillow and bolster fight (pretty normal for us, but sometimes he can be quite rough and I'll be angry). Halfway through, I went downstairs for a drink....he followed me and corner me in the kitchen...asking me to explain why I am behaving that way tonite. It ended cos we were both too tired...so we went to sleep. I really hope Tete can grow up and stop behaving like a child...he is already over 30 years old...I need a man who can take care of me, not a child whom still need my attention and care a lot.

I am mentally and physically tired...realli. Especially with so many preparations going on. Now I am beginning to worry about our unprepared wedding..yet to work on the guest list. Arrghhh.

Had a mini family gathering yesterday. All our parents and my uncle came and I had a hard time cooking dinner and washing the dishes thereafter. Everything ended at 9+ when I finally cleaned up my messy kitchen. Final conclusion> this kitchen is not meant to prepare a feast..just a simple, quiet dinner is all it can take.

I don't think the dinner suits everybody's liking, as usual my mum is complaining from beginning to end...mum and dad din eat much and poor me and dear gotto finish most of the dishes. The feeling suxs when you've spent so much effort but is not appreciated. Dear moved in most of his belongings which is still sitting in the foyer area...think he'll have a hard time clearing them since he only have a wardrobe space and a small cabinet. Hehe...think he'll end up throwing most of the stuff away. Well, after dinner as mummy left, I can't help but start to feel a little sad...I tink its becos I miss her and I miss my room. I miss the times when I can go home and dinner is ready...all I have to do is finish my dinner, wash my own dishes and watch tv on my bed (haha, i know..lazy pig). But now, I have to cook my own dinner, wash all the dishes and clean the house after dinner...arrgghhh.

Twinkle misses mummy too...saw tears in her eyes after she left. She still isn't toilet trained..so I have to confine her to the kitchen again. If only humans can speak dog language. By the way, I have always been tempted to try head and shoulders on twinkle...cos she got bad dandruff problem...so I did my research and found on some websites that it is ok for dogs to use head and shoulders...some owners commented it really help in their dog dandruff problem..so I will be buying that tonite and trying it on twinkle tomorrow! Hope it works...

I am beginning to miss the process of my wedding preparation..I mean everybody that is getting married hopes it can be over soon, but for me, I enjoy the preparation stage...the anticipation as well as the progress. You get to have friends asking if you need help, and attention from everybody around you. How else can you enjoy such things during normal times? Well, since I have another 6mths more to go..I am going to enjoy every moment of it...but pretty worried too cos there're so many things not done.

Will be starting our first Marriage Preparation Course this week with Pastor Alex. He is kind enough to let us join his group even though we don't belong to that church. I really hope the course will benefit us in our route to marriage. Throughout the preparation of our Love Nest, there were several arguements and disagreement...but somehow things changed for me..in the past, I'll probably call it quits at the slightest quarrel...but now I find myself able to forgive and forget sooner then I expected. Thanks to dear who always have a way for making me smile after a quarrel even though I am at fault (the last time he bought two boxes of chocos - imitation of Porky biscuit and a big heart shape lollypop with the word "I love u" for me.)...I guess we still have lots to learn to have a perfect marriage. Like the saying goes, "wedding is made in heaven, marriage is built on earth." Besides tolerance, understanding is very impt for a couple to stay together...learning to appreciate each other for the slightest things they've done..pausing in your hectic life once in a while to give each other some kind words or a hug or a kiss. I don't want my marriage to turn sour after a perfect wedding...so definately have to put in due effort to make it last happily ever after. Shucks...talking crap again..okie, back to work.

Going to BanGkok again

I am so excited..will be revisiting Bangkok for the 4th time next month. First time was a company trip, Second time was with a friend, third was last year with my in-laws. This time, it'll be just dear and me! I promised myself before never to revisit a country too many times cause I wanna save the time and money to visit the rest of the world before I grow old..budden the temptation of the cheap and good shopping in Bangkok is just too hard to resist! The clothes, bags, watches at quarter the price here but triple the variety caused me to book the trip there for the third time! This time round, our agenda is mainly home shopping..need to lookout for home decoratives to beautify our plain white rooms. Can't wait to grab the great finds. Here is some pics of my last Bangkok trip to share.

The last thriving floating market in Bangkok. Its located on the outskirts of Bangkok, the bus ride there will take 45mins. Throughout the journey, we'll pass by salt farms, traditional thai wooden huts etc. Tour guide told us that this market is still surviving due to tourist support...if not, it'll die off very soon as well. However, glad to see that nearby residents still visit this market for their daily groceries. Although majority of the boats sell souveniers, there is still a good number which sells traditional thailand snacks..and we grab the chance to try as many as we can.

This is a typical insects vendor in Jatuchak (JJ Market). I learnt recently that the Chatuchak that Singaporeans know is actually called Jatuchak...so be sure to tell the tuk tuk or taxi driver the correct name so that you won't waste time trying to guess the place. So anyone dare to try any of this delicacy? My friend told me he tried before..and its tasteless except for the taste of oil..guess thai's use this to supplement their protein intake.

A typical Tuk-Tuk, vanishing pretty fast also..only about 10,000 left in Bangkok. Be sure not to be taken in by their invites to Jewellery Shops etc. The driver will tell you to help him..go there look around and he'll get free petrol...but if you're kind enough and have some time (like what we did), go there, walk very fast and finish the tour in 5mins, then leave. He gets his petrol, you get your cheap Tuk-Tuk ride, everybody's happy.

Am I JeaLouS?

Recently have been having this wierd feeling about a friend..she is an old church mate whom I've contacted back just when I started my new job. 8 years of no contact and many things have changed. She is already married for 4 years with 2 kids. Anyway, things were ok until we started talking about our lives. She'll ask me things like how my hubby treat me, what house am I living in and where am I having my wedding dinner etc. I din think much about it initially but I realise after I told her these things...she'll reply me with things about her. Her wedding dinner was at PanPac with 40 tables (cos I told her I can't afford 40 tables cos we don't have so much guests), her hubby treats her how well (even though her hubby betrayed her recently, she still forgave him). Then how nice is her job..(she gets 2.5k even without any paper qualifications). Suxs...I am trying hard not to sound like I am jealous of her..but I just wonder..are all the things she said true? If yes, how can she afford such things when her hubby is just a delivery man and she is just a admin clerk? How come she can afford to get a new handphone every month, have a maid at home when she can't even afford a $2 meal? I hate it if I am lied to...I mean, to some extent you can bluff me and get it through..but I am not that stupid am I..budden if what she said is true, then I have no right to think this way...afterall, some people might just have this kinda luck. Anyway, back to work..enough of my grumbling.

Twinkle's Story

Decided to write about someone else other than my boring life today. This someone is my precious...and she is Twinkle (my cute 8 years old shih tzu). Finally I can spell her breed correctly..up till yesterday I was still spelling it as shit tzu X).

As most of my time is spent in the new house nowadays, besides missing my mum, I've been missing Twinkle quite a bit. So unofficially, I moved her in with me over the weekend. There she is..following me to our new house with her leash, some of her favourite dog biscuits and her used dog bowl. Haha..quite easy to shift her eh, she don't have much worldly possessions. Opps, this reminds me, gotto move her clothes over too.

I got Twinkle when she was only 2 mths old. Me and my mum were shopping at Pet Safari 8 years ago looking for a dog. I din know exactly which dog to get initially but just wanted to get a dog with a flat face cos I thot they look very cute. As I was introduced to a dozen of silky terriers, chihuahuas..i spotted this tiny shih tzu sitting in the cage staring at me. Climbing up and down now and then as if trying to catch my attention to bring her home. I asked the shop assistant to bring her to me. When I first held her in my arms...it was scary as to how filmsy she felt...it feels like if I used more strength then I shld, it'll break her. So I was careful in my handling with her. We decided to bring her home...as she has not been vacinned, we had to bring her home in a crate.

Once home, I opened up the crate for her to come out...I still remember the first few nights she will bark non-stop cos we kept her in the crate. My mum (who used to hate dogs) even offered to accompany Twinkle by her cage so that she'll stop barking. I'll rush home everyday after school just to play with her. Her eyes will always brighten up whenever someone approaches her. As she is very small, her eye level is at our feet..so she'll chase after whatever feet she can see and knibble with her small tiny teeth. Hehe...

I call her Twinkle becos of the sparkle in her eyes, they're always so bright and round..reminds me of the stars.To our surprise, Twinkle is a very clever dog...only took us 1 week plus to paper train her. She enjoys biting her toys in her mouth and swinging her head to and fro as if trying to make her toy giddy..but I tink sometimes she gets giddy first. There was once she hit her head while doing this action...me and my mum were watch tv in the living room...she walked and lie down beside me..then she starting whining...this is when we realise she is in pain. I immediately reached over to rub her head. Luckily its nothing too serious.

Twinkle will be naughtly at times and will refuse to let us hug her..she is also playful and always wanna play catch whenever we try to reach out and hold her...but she is also sensitive at times especially when she knows we're busy or sad...she'll either crawl up and sit beside us or go to a corner and lie by herself. Dogs are such darling angels created by God...all they want from us is our attention and love...and looking at them, who can bear not to give them love.

I had to leave her alone in the new house cos I need to work today...hope she will be good and poo poo on the papers left for her...can't wait to go home and see her soon. Hope she'll be a good girl and wait for mummy to come home.

Wedding Headache

Arrghh...so vexed today...called the car rental guy yesterday and he told me the bad news, his car was badly damaged and had to be scrapped...so no car to rent me for my wedding day. God, why does this have to happen to me? I booked him in March and now is already June...6 more months left to my wedding. How am I going to find another car in such a short time. You may say I am kiasu..but my wedding which is on xmas eve is quite a hot date...many other car dealers who have BMW z4 is already booked for that day! #$%#$%

I have to settle for alternatives such as the VW Beetle Cabriolet or Merz CLK. That car rental guy promised to find a similar car for me and will let me know by sunday. I even had the urge to just settle for our own Nissan as our Bridal car. But nooo...wedding is suppose to b the perfect day isn't it? So many things seems to go wrong these few days. First is the car..which is the worst news..it caused me to lose sleep last nite. Then the stupid Mayer Marketing refused to exchange the knife for me..the worse part is they don't even bother to reply me! I've sent a complaint email over...see how it goes. If they still don't reply, I'll keep bombing their email until they do! Grrr...

Anyway, Sweetson agrees to do the exchange for me already..so thats not so bad. I also lost a new skirt which I've only worn once and the charger for my Samsung fone...the week started quite good with me getting my dream fone (Motorola v3) at no cost cos used my mum's S$70 voucher. Budden...why does a happy week have to end like this? I totally got no mood this weekend. Have to spend extra $$$ to replace those things I've lost. I hate losing things! Shucks.

This weekend will b another busy weekend...contractors coming to rectify things for hopefully the last time. Will b going to book our bangkok trip as well as honeymoon trip also. I hope my leave can get approved promptly...kinda worried cos I've yet to pass probation here. Wish me luck!

Fridge OrdereD

This week is sure a tiring week..not that I am busy at work or what...but just feel very mentally and physically drained. I almost fell asleep in office a few times. hee~ Anyway dear is officially back frm reservist. With his help, finally we can get outstanding things in the house done. We started with the mirror mounting..managed to get it done just by using double sided tape...no need to drill holes. Hehe..dear finally finished with scrubbing the guest room after two weeks...then poor me have to start mopping the floor over and over again so that can get rid of its oilyness.

Dear keep complaining about how much he hated the TV console..making me starting to doubt the design of our house already..i used to think our house is very nice...but after the sofa is in, somehow I don't like it as much anymore...I mean the sofa was a mistake...first, the legs wasn't really what I had in mind, it doesn't look modern or anything...and to change it cost money. Hopefully Sharon can give me a perfect solution for it. Then compared to other pple's house where they spent $30k+ on reno alone, ours look so plain and simple...if not for the things done by previous owner, our house isn't even considered renovated...it looks purely painted over. Dunno if its just me or wat...now i desperately need people to come n tell me my house looks superb!

Maintaining it will be a chore cos the house is so big and its only me doing the cleaning job like sweeping n mopping...and sometimes after work you're alreadi half dead.. Dear is too much of a slack to help out...he'll probably postpone everything until I can't tahan anymore and I'll do it myself. Grrr........

But nevertheless, I am still excited about having my very own house and the fact that my fridge and blinds will be in this week makes me very excited. We even managed to clear off the unwanted stuff back to IKEA and got a refund voucher for S$58.70. Hehe..can use it to buy things we really need. Too bad they can't refund us cash...kinda regretted spending so much at IKEA.

Dear promised me a trip to Bangkok for our 2nd year anniversary! Wow..time flies, we're already 2 years old...and 6mths married. HAhaaa...unofficially. Realli glad to have him with me...he always have a way to cheer me up or make me luff silly...too bad recently he got into frequent mood swings...probably due to menopause i think. Hahaaaa...

But realli excited abt Bangkok trip..going to buy decoratives for the house...buddha head, string curtains, paintings etc...plus plenty of bags and clothes for me. Oh ya, I need plenty of new watches too..the ones I had are all getting pretty old. Am going to save hard from now for the trip...dunno how am i going to squeeze out S$500 leh.

I stumbled upon this site www.dawnyang.com recently...spent two full days reading her blogs...wow...she is a beauty...so pretty that she looks almost perfect like those ah guas i met in bangkok...dun get me wrong, I m not jealous...but there is rumors that she has undergone plastic surgery...anyone has her BEFORE foto? can send me? But her photo makes me regretted I am not young anymore....should hv grab that chance to doll myself up often when I was young...but being kinda ignorant then, I dun really have many vain friends around me to guide me...I only learnt about makeup and fashion when I started working...but luckily its not too late...compared to some of my peers, I belong to the group that knows how to doll myself...sighx...2 more mths and I'll turn 26...alamak, that'll be late 20's! I dun wan...I dun wan...30 seems to b getting nearer n nearer...now I m beginning to fear the day when my hair is all white and my teeth starts dropping off and soon I'll have to bid this world goodbye...so I hv decided, before it happens, I wnana enjoy life to the fullest. Going to Zouk tonite to party...hope I enjoy myself ya~ hehee.