Our Wedding Foto

We took our indoor wedding fotos last sat. It was fun. I spent most of my time dolling up, while dear just sat by the sofa and wait...he even managed to finish the entire "Noah Ark" documentary while waiting for me. Hehe.. Fotoshoot was fun even though not all the photos turn out well..I do hope I can see a great difference when I go down to choose my fotos next week. At the end of the fotoshoot, we were both tired and hungry. And as I was complaining throughout that I din get to watch Noah Ark, dear requested to borrow the VCD for a week from them. Real sweet of him.

I felt really happy that day...not all couples share so many similar interests and can have such fun together. Guess we are really meant to be. I asked dear on our way in to JB, "do you find it wierd that we are both born on the 14th day and we have the same last letter on our IC?" , he replied, "maybe we're meant to be."

The next day, we went to IMM to buy some stuff for our house. As usual, we were pressed for time as we need to return the car to Dad. We only managed to reach IMM around 2+, since it was very crowded due to the renovation of the openair carpark, we had a difficult time finding a parking lot. I hurried around with my shopping trying my best to do it as fast as I could and dear was walking behind me showing a worried face. I asked him, "are you very worried? if yes, we can leave now." He replied, "no its ok, you carry on." I know he is worried that Papa will be angry...and this made me unable to enjoy my shopping. I don't know why every of our weekend have to be so hectic...I really feel burnt out whenever I think of this. Luckily Papa did not scold us when we called him saying we'll be late. He seems to be more understanding nowadays.

On our way back to the car, I spotted a big crowd, it was Chen Weilian, the SG Superstar..he was rather near me..so I joined the crowd to try to peek a look at him. After looking for a minute, I spotted dear's black face behind me...knowing he is angry, I walk on towards the escalator...saying, "its ok, I don't watch anymore." He replied, "what's so good to watch?" As we drive towards Papa's house, I was unhappy about the rush, and we argued. He said," you know we are already late and you still want to watch wat Weilian." Me, "but i only watch for a minute ma." We continue our arguement and I talk about my feelings throughout the renovation process, how I felt so alone and helpless when most of the things is done and decided by myself alone...instead of consoling me, he continue with his angry tone. I cried. This time I felt really hurt...all the things I am doing is for the good of us. Other husbands will side their wives no matter what..but not mine. He will choose to side with whoever he thinks is right...and no matter how hard I try to get him to see my point, he won't get it.

I ignored him for the rest of the day...as we return back to our new house to continue washing the blinds, he did some silly things to cheer me up. Then he apologized to me. I am not sure how many more times such things will happen again, but like what dear said, "I'll never ever let you run away...cos no matter how high or how far you run, I'll chase after you." Hee~

Complaints Complaints Complaints

All TT ever did on the blog was complain....on the phone he complains, during our meetups he complains..sometimes i wonder if he is a girl..if he isn't, why does he behave like one? All our arguements recently is making me pissed...all he does is side others, if not he will be throwing the dirty job to me..i have to be the bad guy in every case while he plays the Mr. Nice Guy. I had enough! All I am doing is trying to benefit us, whereas he will go n decide something which will get us into trouble. I shall skip the details part cos I still care abt his feelings. But anyway, like wat TT says, hope the renovation is over soon and hope that we will not quarrel abt such things again. Work, renovation, our unprepared wedding is putting me under lots of pressure. He mentioned he needs to fight for his career now...but i wonder, why at this point of time when we are most busy?? Or he thinks that I m able to handle everything myself? Sometimes i feel so shag by fighting this battle alone. Am I making the wrong choice? I dunno...

It has been a while since I last had a break...the trip to bangkok last sep wasn't really a break for me...pa and ma was with us, so we had to take care of them most of the time and there were too many restrictions on places we can do and time spent together. I yearn a lot for a break now...even if its a short getaway....just wanna leave everything behide and escape from this world.

Idiot manager is making things difficult for me, first she ask me why i listen to music during office hours..pls, i only listen for abt an hour...and jeff does it all the time, why does she question me only. Then she threw lots of tasks for me to finish before i leave...even including chasing customer's payment...shit! Bitch! To think I used to feel sorry for her and tried to do my best for the co. Now I can't wait to leave this place ASAP and they better dun deduct my salary...otherwise...

I wish the 2wks+ pass soon and I will be out of this living hell...then I can concentrate on renovating my house and preparation for the wedding....and I wish that TT stop complaining soon and behave like a man from now on.

tired....

MK always says work smart, not work hard....
but... what about those that are not smart..?
sometimes i just can't help feeling tired of work... especially when there is not much achievements for me to be proud of... till-date.
its just so de-moralising.... when you are at a certain age realising that you didn't accomplish much... comparing to other peers...
haiz.. looking back, full of regrets for all the time wasted.
I just hoped that... with the amount of efforts I am putting in now... I will be able to achieve our goals, let MK be proud of me and to give her a better life...

Disagreement..

I just had a quarrel with MK... told her about making payment to our contractor... Earlier on, our contractor had called me requesting for some payment as he need the money to pay off his workers and buy some materials... thinking that... o well... fair enough... i agreed on 2 separate payments... 5k each... however when i called MK, she was so against my decision.. and we started to quarrel... haiz.... she asked why i always help other ppl instead of her.... but thats not true... :(
i was just doing saying out my thoughts and making a decision i think I can make... as a guy? i guess i should have discuss with her first before making the agreement.. haiz.... really hope all these reno can finish up soon... its driving both me and MK crazy....